Post by Becca on Oct 25, 2009 13:54:01 GMT -5
I hate my life right now T_T, warning lots of caps and swearing
To start, my dads being a bloody arsehole... he can’t take reasonability for anything but you know blames me about it and you know doesn’t give a shit when I was on the edge of suicide and told me I was perfectly fine and EVERY SINGLE FUCKING TEENAGER DOES THAT... JUST WTF YOU STUPID FRIGGEN ASS. AND THANKS FOR LETTING ME KNOW I WASN’T THE KID YOU WANTED... THANKS FOR LETTING ME KNOW I WAS THE WRONG GENDER AND YOU HATE ME SO MUCH YOU DENIED BEING MY FATHER. YOUR PART OF THE REASON I’M SO DEPRESSED ALL THE TIME NOW. In addition to this he refuses to buy me a simple bed when the one I have now is 10 years old and falling apart because we haven’t any money apparently (this is a lie, his wallet always has about £1000 in it at a time =/) but you keep on buying rare classic cars and motor bikes. Glad to know a piece of metal is more important to you than you know that 15 year old girl in your house that hangs about and eats food.
Oh yeah, and in addition to that as well, thanks for the self confidence issues dad, thanks for telling me how shit I look and how no matter what I’ll never be pretty or anything... CAUSE YOU KNOW I LOVE BEING TOLD THAT.... NOT. APPARENTLY I TAKE YOUR ANGER OUT ON YOU.... SO YOU TELLING ME I WAS A STUPID FRIGGEN WOMAN WHO IS USELESS AND GOT US SO UPSET WE WERE WITH OTHER FAMILY FOR A WEEK ISN’T? WELL I LOVE YOU TO... ACTUALLY DAD YOU CAN GO DIE FOR ALL I’M CARING RIGHT NOW
Also, I’ve been guilt tripped twice by a teacher cause I hate my family, thanks for the mental breakdown stupid fucking teacher T_T. I hate my family because they hate me, the fact I got told this by my own sister and nieces gave me the idea and you reminded me the only person from my family I /ever/ have admired buggered off a while ago and wants to pretend I don’t exist anymore... thank you so much.
To my mum, I’m not your friend you can rant on to about dad... I’m not. I don’t need you to stress me out about him anymore than you do. I mean you talk to your friends all the time, please leave me alone about him. Oh yeah and thanks for telling me I was being silly whenever I tried to talk about you for anything so now I can’t tell you anything and have to watch while everyone else seems fine about it. Oh yeah and thanks for telling me that “my kind” of people should be shot... makes me feel loved so so soooooo much T_T
*cough* I’m really depressed and pissed off right now so I had to let all of that out. My writing goes shit when I'm like this so it probably wont make sense but right now I don't care
